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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

11.06.2025 11:06

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

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Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

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I was very sick at this time too.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

I have no regrets .

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

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Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

Would this be the day?

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On the 31st of Jan this month .

He was dying to do it , i knew.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

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Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

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He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My life is so biszare .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

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She died at 55 of colon cancer.

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

What is one thing nice you did for someone today or something they did for you?

Was to survive, this bastard.

Im still living with it.

So whats the point in blame.

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And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

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But ive been too sick for many years..

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

I will be 64.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

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Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Put me off passion for life!!

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He knew the spot.

Why did i forgive my father ?

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

And who doesn’t know suffering?

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

My family never makes their pension either.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

Im dying but, im not bitter.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

But, we were locked up after school.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

And i lived it daily.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Especially a lifetime of it.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

When she asked me how she looked .

He resisted the act ,that day.

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I think the readers, may guess!

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

(And it was in our own minds.)

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

She loved him until the end.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

We were not on the streets..

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

She wouldn,t have been !

We all went to grammer schools

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

I couldn’t, believe it.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I don,t even have a pension.

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

She found it foreign!.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

I waited trembling.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Ive learnt so much.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Where the ultimate outsiders.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I said to her

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Who then, do I blame.?

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

She married twice! .

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I write beautiful poetry .

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

It was going to be , some day.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I was 9 years of age.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

What did i know ?

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

But it wasn’t much.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She was in good health!

So, i spoilt her more .

This is soul school!.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Comes on , in middle age.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

I could never make a relationship work though!

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

All the time i was locked up.

One cannot live in the past .

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I was scared of men, in general

I never cut or harmed myself..

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I was seconnd youngest,

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

I was writing from the time i was a small child.